July 9th, 2006
I learned something the other day that brought up a lot of long-held resentments for me.
I’ve tried to write it down five times and I can’t make it work without getting into details, which is the last thing I want to do.
I guess I’m glad to know that the things I thought were true really are, but at the same time I think I was better off without having the confirmation. The reality, though, leaves me angry and hurt.
She will never ask for my forgiveness. She will never acknowledge the horrible things she did to me. She will never tell me how she really feels and she’ll never understand that the things she blames me for didn’t hurt anyone as much as she hurt me.
I hate being angry, but I hate even more being angry when there’s absolutely nothing I can do about it… that makes me feel helpless.
I wish I knew how to write about it. It might not fix anything, but it would probably make me feel better.
Well… I would like your forgiveness.
Comment by Zin � July 9, 2006 @ 5:46 am
You should (cartman voice) KICK HER IN DA NUTZ!!!
Nutz are of course figurative in this case.
Glad I could help.
Comment by Ed � July 10, 2006 @ 11:00 am