Campfyre Stories

I’m picking fights off of my forum.  I’m taking things way too personally.  I’m cutting myself off from certain people in the hopes that I won’t jump down their throats because they are pissing me off.

Yeah, I’m bitchy this week.

A friend of mine was asking me about my music.  I was really ready to talk about it, too…  to talk about how I’m not feeling inspired, but how, also, I’m feeling a little abandoned by those who were previously supportive.  It’s a rough place to be in.  I want to be playing and writing and I’m just not doing any of it.  My callouses are almost entirely gone

So this friend got me to talking about it…  and then metaphorically skipped off and got distracted by a shiny object.  I was grieving a little, on the verge of tears, ready to actually talk about it and was further abandoned in the endeavor.  It made things worse on the musical front.

I’ve got very little patience for people pulling bullshit with me, and it seems like quite a few people are.  I’ll listen to anyone’s problems, but I refuse to be dumped on.  If you have looming deadlines, you can bitch, but don’t put that shit on me, don’t make me feel like I’ve made it worse.  If you’re in a situation where you don’t want to be, one that’s BAD for your mental well-being, don’t get on my case for saying that maybe you’re not meant to live with other people - something you, yourself have told me NUMEROUS times in the past.

I’m just getting really tired of being yelled at for things that aren’t my fault…  and I’m getting tired of people asking how I’m doing and asking specific questions about specific aspects only to abandon me when I start to talk about the things that I inherently keep closed off.

Maybe I’m not the one that’s bitchy…  maybe it’s that handful of people instead…  but it doesn’t really matter.  It just all makes me tired, regardless of who is fault, if there’s even any fault to be had.

~FG };^/