FG: I’ve pretty much just given up at this point.
Friend: Given up on what?
FG: Everything. Given up on finding a boyfriend; given up on ever being satisfied with my job; haven’t played my guitar since shortly after I got back from DC: given up on the blog… you know, pretty much everything.
Friend: Hrm. I feel close to the same.
FG: Yeah, it’s going around.
And I do think it is going around, but it doesn’t change the way things are.
I’m still making plans and trying to go out and have a good time, but really for the past a little over a month, I’ve been getting more and more apathetic. If I haven’t fully given up on being happy or even content, I’m damn close. And as far as I can tell, there’s not anything I can do to start caring about things anymore.
FWIW.