I have a bad feeling.
February 24th, 2006It’s one I can’t define. I hate that. I know something bad is about to happen and, even though I can guess at who might play a part in it I can’t definitively say anything. All I can do is wait and see.
Spawn decided to go full-on into teenagedom, leaving me conflicted about my overall realtionship with him. I don’t even know how to write that story down. I can tell it, but it doesn’t convey in text.
I think that it’s time for me to take a break from just about everything right now. If I had somewhere to go, I would leave tomorrow, but I have nowhere to go. It’s been too long since I took a train trip. I think 16 or so hours one way would do it for me… I don’t miss those days, but I miss those experiences.
It’s times like this when I think about faking my own death or assuming a false identity… not that I would ever actually DO that, but it’s something I think about from time to time when I get… like this.
Pay no attention… for now I think I’m just going to try to find somewhere I can hide out for a little while. Even if I can’t get out of town, there has to be SOMETHING I can do…
~FG };^/
This works for me. I take my dogs to the ocean. The ebb and flow. The now and then. The cycle of life.
Or I go shopping.
Comment by Jan � February 24, 2006 @ 15:44 pm
…you can assume my identity. No, really, please do it!! *begs*
Comment by Parizad � February 24, 2006 @ 18:24 pm
Try writing your escape fantasy down. You may have a good story in there! I had a bad feeling a few weeks ago. Turns out I left the lights on in the pickup. Left me without a vehicle for 3 days. It really sucked.
Sometimes the bad things aren’t tragic, just a pain in the butt!
Comment by Dawn � February 25, 2006 @ 0:20 am
My favorite form of vacation is my personal “mental retreat.” Here’s what I do.
I play uplifting, happy music (They Might Be Giants, Dick Dale, soundtrack from Avenue Q, whatever makes me smile and chair-dance). I wear bright colors. I sip a cup of my favorite happy beverage (usually coffee, juice with crushed ice, or Macallan 18-year-old).
Then I sit down and brainstorm everything I want in life and write it down. In relationships, in possessions, in accomplishments, in lifestyle. Everything. No limits. For example, here are some from my current list: Achieve financial independence. Drive a zero-emissions vehicle. End war. Reach 10% body fat. Solve human mortality. Write 10 books. Be a $1 billion philanthropist.
Usually, I have a list left over from a prior “mental retreat” session, and I recycle or update some of those goals.
Now I put a date next to each one. The date by which I will have, achieve, or be what I want.
Finally I write, for each one, a single action I will take TODAY to move towards that goal.
At the end, I have an optimistic vision of my future, and I have a whole list of uplifting, motivating, satisfying activities to do. It’s really quite amazing. Give it a shot some time.
Comment by Kyle B � February 25, 2006 @ 19:00 pm