Campfyre Stories

I’m really getting sick and tired of hearing "It’s not your fault."  I KNOW that it’s not my fault, but it doesn’t change the fact that things are going very, very badly wrong.  "You’re doing everything right."  Yes, I am, and yet, STILL things are going wrong…  things that I have to deal with and attempt to manage.

I’m not going to be unemployed, but I’m still losing my current job.  The fact that we didn’t get the contract is what sucks about this situation and the fact that people (in a position to influence the decision) are saying how amazing and fabulous I am at the job I am losing does not actually change the suck factor of my losing my job and having to learn to do something new.

I want to be angry, but there’s no one to be angry at.  I feel upset, but there doesn’t feel like a reason to actually be upset, since I’m not actually going to be negatively impacted by this.  In fact, the timing of when I stop doing what I’m doing and start doing something else really couldn’t be better.

But, for fuck’s sake…  I finally got to a point where I not only like what I do, I know all the people I need to know and have made an impact and polished my reputation.  Now I have to start all over again, doing something else entirely.

It’s all okay, though, because it’s nothing about me.  It’s not my fault and I haven’t done anything wrong.  I guess that’s supposed to make me feel better?