On that you can rely
September 29th, 2005I nailed it! At least, I say that without actually having seen the video. I felt good about last week’s performance as well, and then painfully suffered through myself on Tuesday when I watched and listened to how flat I actually was. For now, though, having not seen the video, I feel like I nailed it!
Finally, I am a fixture at the Lark Tavern. People know me by face, by voice, by name… and they approach me as often as I approach them. It’s a pretty cool thing, I think. It’s nice to have finally gotten to that point.
On other topics, I’m reevaluating. I’m pretty confused by the behavior of someone I *thought* was a good friend. When your other friends say, “You know, he seems like a good guy, but he sure does act like an asshole to you,” it indicates something I can’t put my finger on. The worst part is that they’re right. He really is acting like an asshole and treating me crappy. It’s an overall thing and I don’t understand what’s causing it.
He’s changed and I don’t know why. I also don’t think he’s at all aware of how he’s changed, at least in his behavior toward me. It makes me feel a whole lot of different emotions. It makes me sad, it makes me worry for our friendship, it makes me worry for him, it makes me wonder what’s actually going on… it makes me think in circles and loops… I really hate that shit, you know?
I just want to shut off my thoughts… I wrote a song about that once. I wish I could remember any of it.
~FG };^>
