Campfyre Stories

Believe it or not, my blog is not nearly as open as my life.  Once upon a time I used to claim that I was an open book, but that you had to use the index to find what you were looking for.  I still believe that, there’s very little about me, my past, my life that’s off limits, but…

I don’t blog about everything.  Some of you may have figured this out, considering that there are *very* few references to the Cowboy (SHUT UP!) and even fewer references to certain other minor aspects or even major players in my life. 

You see, I was sitting here thinking about what to write, knowing that I wanted to, but not knowing what to say.  I got a phone call and some news that put a (great, big) smile on my face, but that remains in the category of things we don’t talk about.  I have plans from tomorrow straight through ’til Monday, but much of it I’m probably not going to talk about and none of it do I feel compelled to talk about before it actually happens.  Maybe it’s discretion, maybe it’s secrecy, maybe it’s just that shy side that people don’t believe I actually have manifesting.  Regardless of the maybes, it’s certainly there.

You see, when I think about it, if I actually wrote down all the things that I think and feel, I think it would scare off a lot of the people who (claim to ) like me.  Honestly, if I were to write some of those things down and read them in someone else’s blog, I would judge them very harshly.  Heh.  I already do sometimes, I suppose, on some level, I don’t need that from an outside source.

But that’s not entirely right, either.  Most of those things I do say out loud.  I say them to the girls, hell I say them to the boys sometimes.  I say them to the people to whom they apply and that’s more than enough.  But to write them down…  Oooh, I don’t know…  there’s something in that concept that makes the whole thing a lot more real.  It almost feels like it doesn’t leave me room to change my mind.

And, frankly, I probably will change my mind on some of the topics.

So there are some names that will probably not see print.  There are some pet names that will rarely see print.  There are certain subjects that I’m just not going to delve into, if for no other reason than I LIKE having some things that retain a measure of being insubstantial…  those are the things, I find, that make life most interesting.

~FG };^>