Campfyre Stories

Day one was a roller coaster.  Emotion after emotion until I was done.  This was the part where I tried to get as much information as I could and put together the reasonings.  I think I know as much as I’m going to about that.

There’s nothing I can do about it, and I didn’t lose my job for anything that I did or didn’t do.  I just happened to be the one in the place to be affected by it.  Not that that makes it any better, but there is certainly some measure of comfort in knowing that things were wholly out of my control.

So we move on.  This gives me the opportunity to take care of things that were maybe falling by the wayside.  My house is going to be spotless, I’ll actually have the time to focus on my guitar again.  I can get all the CDs packaged up and shipped out to those who I don’t get to hand a copy to.  My cats will welcome the attention and, who knows, maybe I’ll start walking the Spawn home from school again.

One phone call I made left me pretty hopeful.  I can’t count on anything for a while, but it was nice to hear that someone who can help, someone who is highly respected by people _I_ respect, thinks that he can probably get me working again by the end of January.

In the meantime, I will paint, which interestingly enough is something that comes up every single time I lose a job.  My mom calls and says “I have a painting job, want to help?”  I always do, too.  I love to paint.  There’s something very Zen and therapeutic about it.  And it’s always progress you can see - you can measure it as you go.

I guess as long as I can keep myself busy, the waiting period should fly right by.  I’m not overly worried about the money…  I’ll be ok, as long as I’m working relatively soon, it’s more about keeping occupied and making myself leave the house. 

All things happen for a reason.  Usually that reason doesn’t become clear until the trial is over and you can look at it from the outside.  I’m ok with not knowing the reason *right now*, but I am looking forward to seeing what this new situation is going to bring.

~FG };^>